Stuck In The Middle With You

Well I don’t know why I came here tonight
I’ve got the feeling that something ain’t right…

Life sometimes seems to be so random. This old Gerry Rafferty song sums it up

I remember as a teenager walking home up ‘Pepper Alley’, a steep unlit path. I was alone, in the dark, looking up at the stars and thinking: ‘Why am I me, here, today?’ I thought of my home, family, school… ‘Why wasn’t I in Chelsea… or Cheshire… or China?’

I often return to the ‘Why me, here, today?’ question. I did yesterday.

Clowns to the left of me
Jokers to the right
Here I am stuck in the middle with you

Specifically musing…

Why me – friends and acquaintances? Yesterday was full of people… conversations, success stories, problems, unresolved issues… my life’s tied up with dear friends… clowns, jokers…

Why me – health? I met Richard yesterday – an ex-work-colleague; he’s had a heart attack and triple bypass. I chatted to Will whose had testicular cancer and is on permanent medication for his mental health issues…

Why me – faith?… Gents I met at Men’s Shed yesterday have lived their lives without any sort of faith. They’ve never been to church and don’t see any need for ‘religion’…

Why me – family?… I came home… chatted to Rachel about friends and our family. Some of the friends I chatted to don’t have that privilege.

Trying to make some sense of it all
But I can see it makes no sense at all

Musing… Jesus had healed a blind man. The religious leaders were asking the man many questions he didn’t know the answer to. All he could say was ‘…I don’t know! One thing I do know. I was blind, but now I see.’

Perhaps sometimes I just need to focus on and be grateful for the questions I do know the answers to!

Clowns to the left of me
Jokers to the right
Here I am stuck in the middle with you