There Was Jesus – Again

Every time I tried to make it on my own
Every  time I tried to stand and start to fall
And  all those lonely roads that I have travelled on
There was Jesus

I first met this song a year ago; it’s remained close to me through this past year. At times there have been doubts and difficulties, failures and frustrations, muddles and mixed rubbish, loneliness, unanswered questions…

Some friends get through the difficulties by going to the joyful, the uplifting, the inspirational. I return to my simple reality… Through every emotion and situation ‘There was Jesus’ – again.

When the life I built came crashing to the ground
When  the friends I had were nowhere to be found
I  couldn’t see it then but I can see it now
There was Jesus

What has helped my belief grow with increasing certainty is to see the experiences of people close to me… Friends who have messed their lives up, those who have lived through addictions, broken relationships, family crises, debilitating illness, even those who have turned their back on faith… They’ve discovered – ‘There was Jesus’ – again.

For this man who needs amazing kind of grace
For forgiveness at a price I couldn’t pay
I’m not perfect so I thank God every day
There was Jesus

This morning I was reading of the Jesus who calms storms, who heals the sick and transforms lives.

My experience continues to be that Jesus isn’t only there in the story’s happy ending. He’s there in the life’s hurting, darkness and broken pieces. And my faith is stronger because, whether I see Him or not, I know ‘There was Jesus’ – again.

In the waiting‚ in the searching
In the healing and the hurting
Like a blessing buried in the broken pieces
Every minute‚ every moment
Where I’ve been and where I’m going
Even when I didn’t know it or couldn’t see it
There was Jesus