Invictus… but weeping

Out of the night that covers me
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul…

William had tuberculosis. He had already had his left leg amputated when he was 16. He had surgery to save his right leg and wrote this poem ‘Invictus’ – ‘unconquered’. By self-discipline and inner strength he would get through.

George had been diagnosed with cancer. Together with Louise, his young wife, they determined that they would conquer this cancer. They called it ‘project Invictus.’ With two young sons they had to conquer it.

They discovered George’s cancer was terminal.

Feeling angry, lost, and alone, Louise got into her car and drove into the night.

‘I howled. I wiped away my salty tears almost as rhythmically as my wipers scraped against the windscreen. Even the weather was in step with how I felt.’

Unable to see the road for her tears she pulled over in a narrow country lane and got out of the car.

‘I looked up at the sky and I roared. I roared with every single fibre of my being. It was a roar of pain, a roar of heartbreak, a roar of brokenness and hurt…’

I shouted as loud as I possibly could ‘GOD!!’ …

‘If you are real.’ I roared. ‘If you are as good as everyone says you are, then the time has come. You HAVE to f…ing show me!!’

‘Invictus’ is not always the reality even for the strongest and the most optimistic.

The God presented in the ‘UK Blessing’ is a god who is on our side through our tears, in our darkness and despair.

‘In the morning, in the evening, In your coming and going, In your weeping, and rejoicing, He is for you , he is for you.’


‘Invictus’ written in 1875 by William Henley (1846-1899)

‘Hope is coming’ by Louise Blyth (2020)

The UK blessing‘ is taken from Aaron’s priestly blessing – Numbers 6:24-26. Released 2 weeks ago: featuring people from 65 churches: seen over 2.6 million times on YouTube.

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